One Year Later!

July 7th, 2014 marks one year when I decided I had enough of being fat - I was tired of being tired... didn't want chest pains anymore.  I wanted to feel healthy again.  I had a goal - #BikiniBy30.  It wasn't a desire to be a gorgeous beach babe in a bikini... but a bikini to me would mean "health."  It would mean I made better choices in my life.  It wasn't how I would look (well, ok, maybe I wanted to look better - who doesn't... but the main thing was that it would mean I took control of my life.)  What a year it has been.  I am down 35.5 pounds in one year! I ran two 5ks! I wobbled a little a few pounds but I am still on the downward spiral!

Started at 240... now down to 204.5!

The next few pictures are a little off because I started weighing in on the Publix Higi machine in August but here are the "official" computer results:

My weight loss - you can see where I plateaued a few times (mainly around Thanksgiving/Christmas... then went up a little when I started having some dinner dates - the old saying is true - when you start dating somebody, you gain weight! Never again (will I gain when dating lol.) This is probably my favorite graph of all time lol

BMI - still "obese" but closer to "overweight" 

Blood pressure... it is usually always normal.

Pulse - all over the place

Transformation! WAHOO!!!

I have purchased my bikini top - in a size 12!  It is a gorgeous coral color.  I saw it in Bealls in the fall.. and it was on sale this weekend so I went and snagged it up before it was sold out (like the bottoms were :(  )  Now I am working on getting my white belly tanned up so that it will be ready for public beaches sometime in my 30th year :)  Going to keep fighting!  Thank you to all who have asked me what was up when they had not seen an update in a while!  Thank you to all who have messaged me to ask what I was doing and wanted my help.  I'm glad I could help give you some advice on your journey.  Please don't hesitate to ask or if you need a little bump in motivation!  YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

"No matter how slow you go, you are still lapping everybody on the couch." - Unknown

Dating and Purging

I am now down 36 pounds, in a size 14 and had an amazing, hot date last week! OW OWWWW!  Many of you know that I have been "online dating" - but not seriously.  I have had profiles up for years because it is pretty comical the messages I get - like disgusting comical.  I post all the great ones on my Instagram.  Anywho, so I don't want to get too far into it, only because it's new and I don't want to get my hopes up... but the date was great and he told me how pretty and cute I was and how attracted to me he was (this was a 6 hour date, by the way... after 3 weeks of messaging/texting/one phone call.)  I play it off to be confident... but I'm getting used to the "new me."  I wonder in the back of my head "Is he really attracted to me? Am I good looking? Is my body attractive? Or is he after one thing?"   Right now I am getting close to how I looked in college - where men did hit on me - so I'm thinking maybe this is for real.  It is hard to tell - and I'm not going to let my curious mind show what is going on in the back of my head.  I just enjoy the compliments and the PDA - yes, PDA!!  Here I am, with this ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS man walking hand-in-hand, arm-in-arm, little kisses in a very popular place in town and I AM LOVING IT.  Like he is showing me off and not afraid to show people who he is out with.  (Seriously, his online pics do not do him justice - even my guy friends were with me when we met the first time and had a man crush on him that they admitted to me later haha... so I got their approval.)  Actually, now that I'm thinking about it - this may be the first real PDA I've had.  With other guys, it was private.  Newbie and I were walking down the street and we would look at each other and smile and he would say, "We just had a moment"  and "We just had another moment."  -- talk about making a girl melt holy moly!  There is your little tidbit about my date - hoping for another one soon... which better happen.  We're still talking so there is hope lol.

Here are some updated pics!  The first one is with my friend Bryan back in July 2012 - YIKES.  I actually just sold that dress this week!

Bryan and me, July 2012

March 20, 2014

This was the dress I ended up wearing for me and newbie's first date! Speaking of clothes - a few weeks ago I had a little bit of an emotional/anxiety moment.  I went to try on some clothes from my bags of "skinny clothes" and one after one, they were fitting.  I had a pile on my bed of all these new clothes that fit me and I had no idea where to put them.  I left them on the floor... managed to find spaces for a few of them... until yesterday.  I finally got the urge to go through my drawers and put clothes that were too big in a garbage bag to sell.  Filled the bag to the tippity top and took it right away to Clothes Mentor and sold 6 items.  Made $19.40.  I just had anxiety over getting rid of these bigger clothes thinking one day I would need them again.  I finally said NO, I AM DONE WITH THESE.  It was a huge step. HUGE step for me to do this.  A friend at school told me to keep them for when I get preggo one day... I just don't want to see them again... though It was a good idea but NO that leaves it there for me to fall back so I couldn't.  BOO YAAAAA.  

Hope to have another update soon!  Keep working hard my friends!  THIS IS POSSIBLE!!!!!!!  AND I'M 14 POUNDS AWAY FROM MY HALFWAY POINT! YEEEEEEEEEEAH BOOOOOOOOOOYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!

OH OH OH! BEFORE I FORGET!!!  I DID MY 2ND 5K LAST WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!  Didn't take it seriously - went with a group of friends.  It was the Color Vibe 5k and we walked a lot of it and talked - but we did jog a nice bit of it, too!  Two 5ks down!!! 

March 22, 2014

"Eating crappy food isn't a reward -- it's a punishment." -- Drew Carey

Pictures Update

Good morning/afternoon/evening!  I am now down (just shy of) 32 pounds!!!  Weighing in at just about 208.  I started at 240.  Can't wait to get below 200!!!!!!!

  I have been keeping a PowerPoint presentation with pictures of my progress and without further adieu..... here is a look from July 2013 and January 2014.  Now, it still isn't pretty... but it's pretty progress!  Sooo if you aren't ready to see a big ole pale tummy, click out now...
















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here it comes!

It's pretty cool to see the tummy shrink!  My only thing is I don't know what to do about the back - it is pretty darn gross still and am afraid it won't be bikini ready for #bikiniby30.  I have been getting up at 4:30am every day before work to get my cardio in.  I manage to get in some weight training - a tiny bit.  I have also signed up for my second 5k with the ColorVibe Run and am totally stoked!  Going to do this one with some friends.  Our team is "No Teacher Left Behind"  ;)  That is going to be in March so I'm getting ready for that!  I'm working out 6 days a week these days.  I'm going to try and get it to 2-a-days but right now I'm so exhausted after teaching that I haven't made it in the evenings yet.  I just took over a new class and I have been there until 5-6pm every night.  After getting up at 4:30, working out, then teaching a bunch of 6-7 year olds, I'm wiped out.  I'm hoping after I get my new routines down that I should be getting the 2-a-days in very soon!  Less than 6 months to go until the big 3-0!  Ahhh!  

As an added bonus, my rump is getting a hump!  I'm pretty proud that i'm getting some definition down there...

Sorry for the wrinkles - it was before I put my pants in the dryer to de-wrinkle :) but look at that little bubble that's starting!

I also tried on my bikini from 2001 (yes, 13 years ago... still sitting in my drawer) that I wore in the privacy of my own home.  Now, I was able to get the top on (WOO HOOO) but it looks TERRIBLE so I chopped that bottom half off.  Hopefully I'll be ready in 6 months to wear it all out in public!  My dear friend Molly also told me to turn that thumb around and smile - she's right.  This is progress!!!!  And hey, I got the darn thing on and it covered my whole bottom lol.  I have come a long way and still have a long way to go!

"A little perspective, like a little humor, goes a long way." - Allen Klein 

Psychology

Mercy me the changes that have happened the last three months!!  Right now I am down 28 pounds - 28-ish % of the way there!  I ran a 5k in September... finishing in just under an hour. I wogged my way to the finish - with tears at the end.  Such an accomplishment for myself!

I also did more shopping in my closet - emptying a bag and a half out of my clothes that were too small a few months ago, and even scored a few dates!  Which brings me to today's post: the psychology of weight loss, kind of.

My whole life, like many people, my weight has been up and down.  I've been the girl that guys hit on at the bar.. and the one that guys wouldn't give the time of day to.  You have possibly seen on television different stories of how a beauuuuuuutiful person will go in a store (insert your favorite Julia Roberts Pretty Woman movie quotes here...) and be waited on hand and foot.  That person will then leave the store, get all dolled up in a fat suit, go back in the store and be treated like trash.  Well, right now I feel like Julia Roberts after her little makeover and I'm telling people "BIG MISTAKE!".  In college, I wasn't thin by any means, but there were times when I looked comparable to other gorgeous girls I was out with and would get hit on.  Then, in more recent years I obviously put on the weight. I, myself, have been the same outgoing chica that you all know and love ;)  but I wasn't getting the same.. hmm.. feedback? as I was getting as a "more fit" version of myself.  I'm getting to the point now where guys are starting to talk to me again.  I can't help but wonder if these guys would have been the ones to hit on me 30 pounds ago.

One example I'll use is recently a guy from "my past" came into the picture.  30 pounds ago, I just moved back to town and was looking for friends to go out with like the good ole days.  He had basically fallen off the face of the earth/had plans/was tired <insert excuse here.>  Now, all of a sudden, I show up to the bar one night and he's hanging all over me saying "ooooh we go back so many years!"  We hung out the next day because I wanted to watch football... he asks why nothing ever happened with us... and then walked me to my car, kissed me and wanted to hang out later that week.  Umm.. what?!  Wherrrrrrrre were you a few months ago?  I can't help but think that my weight affected his feelings.  Unless, by chance, alllllllll those other times he really did have something going on.  Do I think that's the case? Not at all.  Mama didn't raise no fool.  I just find it very interesting and thought provoking.  I had this convo with one girlfriend that was kind of in the same boat as me.. and another one who is as thin as can be and the thought had never crossed her mind.

Another example is just people in general... they seem to be nicer to me.  Before, some would basically make plans in front of me and not invite me.. which is TOTALLY fine.. but now it's like "Oh, hey! You need to come out with us tonight!"  Or they shout from across the bar "HEY JEN!"  when I wouldn't get a wave before - but just some look.

My thin peeps may not understand this... or maybe you have something similar.  Anywho, as always, curious on your thoughts and if you've noticed the same!

Oh - I also tried a Power Plates exercise and the Range of Motion machine.  YouTube videos of those crazy contraptions...

"Persevere and you will win the prize."

Shopping in My Own Closet!

Another exciting update - down another 2.5 pounds making it 22 total!!!  I'm nearly a quarter into my goal of 100ish pounds and I'm only two months in.  I HAVE TO KEEP THIS UP!!  As I said before, I was on the Whole30 lifestyle.  A friend of mine came to town and I kept it up for the most part - but did go off the lifestyle for a few days.  I had a few beers and a mojito along with some conch fritters and key lime pie (we were in Key West.)  I was nervous to see how my body would react since I hadn't had any crap food for a month.  I did have some lettuce wraps as well.  My body took it just fine, thankfully.  Then I decided to go back on for another 30 days.  May as well since I'm feeling great.  Within the last week, I've noticed my skin is as soft as a baby's bottom and my nails are getting hard again.  For a little bit I thought they were getting a little brittle and I thought that may be from cutting milk out of my diet... but all is better now.  I just need to look up what other foods have calcium besides milk to keep my bones strong!

There's me and my BFF on the Key West Express heading back to Southwest Florida.  I can see thinner legs and a thinner mid section.  My face is also thinning out.  Well, I'd hope so after 20 pounds :)  

After today's weigh-in, I was curious if any of my bagged clothes (sizes 10-16) would fit.  I found some white capris - SIZE 14 (Sonoma brand which I think run on the bigger size) and a few shirts and a skirt!  Put them in my "I can wear now" drawer and picked out a new outfit for work tomorrow. :)  A lovely salmon colored skirt with a cute black top.  HOLLER!  

I have to say that I was super excited to get ready for my Penn State football... and it's crazy how my mind has changed.  I love beer!  Something was different this past Saturday...I didn't want it.  You're thinking, "Jennifer, no beer during Penn State football? Who are you?"  I don't know!  It's crazy how my mind is changing along with my body.  I can't explain it.  Did I have a beer? I did... because it was free... and I didn't even really enjoy it.  WHAT?!  I also felt I needed to order more since I was in a restaurant taking up a table to sit for four hours and watch a game.  I've been a waitress and I know they rely on tips so in my mind I felt like I needed to order it (even though it was free for a promotion) so I could tip them more.  Looking back it makes no sense because I could still tip more without the beer.  I'll remember that for next week... I don't haaaaaaave to order it just because it's free and I'm there.  I can have a water or iced tea and just leave a few extra bucks. I think I was curious to see how it would taste, too, after changing my eating habits.  Now I know :)

Now, I debated on whether or not I wanted to put up these next pics.  I decided to do it because, after all, this is a weight loss blog, and I am proud of what I've accomplished so far.  With that said, it is of me in a sports bra and shorts so if you don't want to see that, X out right now.  For those that care to keep track and actually see the progress I've made, scroll on down.......

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deep breath.

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and some of you thought my showing my scale number was brave... lol....

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can't believe I'm about to share this....  are you sure you want to look?

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July 28, 2013 and August 28, 2013

There I am... 20 pounds down!  I can see my face has thinned... I have more neck to see... even my chest now that I'm checking myself out... I can see a difference there.  Buh bye D cups...   The gut -- I can see on the right some more "definition" instead of just one big blob... it's very small, but I can see it.

Well, not much of a change there... but that bottom roll is less... rollish? Very small change.  BUUUT it's a change!

Here I can see a change in my booty.  It has slimmed down... which I noticed in my tankini swim shorts -- THEY SAG!  Good thing there is a skirt thing around it to hide it until I get a new suit (hopefully bikini!!!) next summer :)  It'll do for winter time in Florida :)

Phew, that's over with... and it only goes "down" from there :)

"The chains of habit are generally too small to be felt until they are too strong to be broken." - Samuel Johnson

This is Some Biggest Loser Stuff!

BOOM SHAKA LACKA -4.5 POUNDS THIS WEEK!!! 19.5 TOTAL!!!!!!!!!  220.5!  I swear, this Whole 30 lifestyle is amazing.  I have like 2 or 3 days left - technically - but I'm going to keep this up.  How can I not?  I was talking to my friend who told me about this diet and I was saying how when this is over I want to have a Publix sub.  my mouth is watering just thinking of it - but she just said how it isn't worth it.  Has she had one?  No, seriously - she is right.  Why would I go through this whole month and then throw it away with empty calories?  I need to keep this up for a bit longer - it's the best thing I've done for myself. Ever.  I may not be as hard core with worrying about every drop of a possible grain of sugar - I'm just going to be mindful.  I don't need that Publix sub, and right now I don't even want it.  I've had it before, I know what it tastes like.  It's a freaking sandwich.  "Food doesn't taste as good as thin feels."  And let me tell ya - I'm loving the way I feel in my tankini :)  So, sorry, Publix sub - you will have to wait.  I still have 40 pounds of weight loss to go so I'm not considered "obese" and then I'm just "overweight."  Ugh.  I. Can. Do. This.   I AM doing this.  CLICK HERE TO READ AND FOLLOW WITH ME.  PLEASE, IF EVERYTHING ELSE YOU'VE TRIED DIDN'T WORK, DO THIS NOW.  START TOMORROW.  OR TODAY IF YOU HAVE HAD THE FOODS YOU CAN HAVE.  It is such a great jump start.  Remember - you will feel like crap at first... then feel great... then feel like crap again... and then amazing.  AND THIS IS WITH MINIMAL WORKOUT!  IE: running around my first grade classroom.  OH which reminds me - sorry for not posting last week (I had lost 2 pounds) but forgot to write on my blog.. becauuuuuuuuse I WAS TOO BUSY SETTING UP MY CLASSROOM!!!!!!!!!!  YES! I got a job!!!!  It is a long term sub job for a mommy on maternity leave and I'm scheduled until November 1.  YES YES YES! I have never been so thankful to have been rejected by so many jobs.  I knew I was holding out for the right thing to come along and this is certainly it.  I have the BEST team to work with and I'm learning so much!  I don't know how I could have gone into this teaching right away with all that is happening in the classroom.  Holy moly.  Anywho... I'm loving it.  I have some real cuties in there that just make me laugh.  So fun!

On today's menu I tried something new for dindin.

Shrimp Tacos

Now, you're thinking TACOS?! JENNIFER! I THOUGHT YOU COULDN'T HAVE GRAIN!!!! Oh oh oh let me tell you the magic of cauliflower - that is the most versatile vegetable on this planet.  I have made so many meals with it.  And it was so easy!  Here is the recipe for the tortillas. And oh yes, they hold like a soft shell taco and don't crumble apart which is what I was afraid of.  Here is the recipe for the shrimp - which obviously cut down and I didn't put in the sugar.  

So there you have it!  The last two weeks for ya!  My goal was to be down 20 pounds by next weekend when my seester comes to visit.  Only half a pound to go! Think I can do it in one week?  I know I can :)  Bon appetite!  Feel free to ask me any questions - I've had people I haven't talked to since high school message me... and others looking for guidance and tips.  Spread the love!!

"The difference between try and triumph is just a little umph!" - Marvin Phillips

13 Down!!!!

WOOOOO HOOOO!!!!!!!!!! I'M AT MY LOWEST WEIGHT IN AT LEAST TWO YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!! Lost 3 pounds this week!  13 total!!  9.5 in 2 weeks on the Whole9 lifestyle.  Annnnnnnnd perhaps the most exciting --  I FIT BACK IN MY TANKINI AGAIN!!!!!!!  My muffin top is down to a mini muffin -- so I'll take it!!  Felt darn good swimming in it today, too.  Swam a ton of laps.  Such a great day.

Down to 227! WOOT WOOT!

Let's rewind.  This week, not so great.  Man, my head was pounding for a good three days.  A few other people complained about headaches as well so I'm not sure if the carb flu came back... or if something was in the air.. or if it was "mother nature" visiting me this week.  Either way, the three days sucked.  Wasn't as bad as my first carb flu day -- but the headache was awful.  I rarely get headaches so it was bad.  And, I hate taking drugs so I just let it go.  I only went to the gym twice this week.  I was hoping to go more -- but I ended up coming home to work on a cover letter for a very important job that I had the opportunity to interview for.  Cross your fingers for me -- I'm still waiting to hear... but, I did feel very comfortable in the interview that I landed like a boss... which is a start!

I found a few good recipes, too...

Meet my savior -- "french fries."  These tasty little morsels are made from jicama!  I had purchased the root veggie a few days ago because, well, why not? I've never tried it.  When I was looking up recipes I came across french fries. OOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH let me tell you how AMAZING it was!  I had a bite of it raw -- crunchy and kind of like a radish but a tit bit sweeter.  When baked, it had the consistency of a french fry -- just what I needed!  Here is the recipe.  Try it.  I added a lil bit of garlic salt or powder as well. On my shopping trip today I picked up another one!  Can't wait to have more fries later this week!  Even mom liked it -- and she's quite picky when it comes to food.

Also on the menu this week....

"Chicken Alfredo."  I nearly followed the recipe -- I don't like onions, so I kept those out.  And instead of blending it all, I pounded the cashews to break them up a bit because I wanted some crunch... and put everything in a sautee pan to warm it up.  Boiled the (frozen) chicken breasts (instead of thighs), baked the spaghetti squash.  Put it all together and voila!  Delish.  Here is the recipe for this!

Starting week 3 on Whole9.  Can't wait to see what this brings!!!!!

 "You've got to say, I think that if I keep working at this and want it badly enough I can have it. It's called perseverance." -- Lee Iacocca

Week 1 on Whole9

Well, what a crazy week it has been!  I felt like crap at dinner of day 1 -- then the rest of the week I have felt just fine!  So fine, in fact, that I cheated and weighed myself (you aren't supposed to during the first month, but I couldn't help myself) AND I'M DOWN 6.5 POUNDS IN ONE WEEK!!!!!!! 10 POUNDS TOTAL! I'M AT 10% WEIGHT LOSS!!!!! The kicker? I DIDN'T GO TO THE GYM ONCE THIS WEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I took a few 10-14 minute walks at work for a break and swam a few days in the pool. That. Is. It!  I was so curious to see what simply changing my diet would do and I lost 6.5 pounds.  CRAZY!  Just by keeping some dairy, sugar and grains out.  Starting tomorrow I'm back to the gym.  Can't wait to see what I lose this week.  It makes me wonder if my body will plateau or if I'll gain with putting on muscle.  Either way, clothes are fitting better and I feel good.  Bought some new workout shorts today, too :)

So what did I eat?  Well, for breakfast every day I had my egg bake that I told you about last time.  Lunches were either salads or leftovers from dinner.  One night I had "fried rice" made out of cauliflower with a pork chop and sugar-free applesauce. Omg, amazeballs.

Cauliflower fried rice

Another night I made pancakes out of a very ripe banana and 2 eggs.  Throw some cinnamon on top and OH. MY. GOD.  Tasted just like a banana bread pancake.  Next time I will be add some nuts to it!  They were so incredibly moist and just delish.  I can't wait until my bananas are ripe enough where I can do this again. MMMMMMMM

banana pancakes

Last, but not least... my room is a disaster area.  I moved to Pennsylvania for a few years.. acquired new clothes.. moved back home and had no room for anything.  So, I have bags of clothes ranging from size 10-16.  I can not WAIT to get back into my old clothes again. I look at these suckers every day and I can't wait to rip into them and wear them... soon :) 

soooo many clothes

I put together my fat pic from 1998/2000... to losing I think 50 pounds? I'm not even sure.. but the pic next to it is prom 2001 - my junior year of high school.  And, I still have that dress.  I WILL get back into it.  Not sure where I'll wear it to... lol... but I just want to zip it up again.  

Thanks again to all my friends, family, and coworkers for supporting me and helping me through this.  Really, the week was not bad.  I've had some people question this "fad diet" and it isn't.  Those people have never been more than 100 pounds overweight.  They can eat what they want and not put on a pound.  I don't expect them to understand.  Am I scared that after these 30 days I may fall into a sammich at lunch every day routine? Yes, I am.  But, it takes 3 weeks to make a change.  This will be 4 :)  I plan to keep it up -- but of course I will be adding back in things like cheese every now and then.  This is changing my lifestyle.  This is a 30 days "cleanse" of sorts.. but will last so much longer.  I've been finding so many yummy recipes.  Friends have given me recipes for pizza that I can't wait to try. 

Just keep going. Everybody gets better if they keep at it.

Day 2... NO FLU!

Second day on Whole9 and I feel great!  Had a tiny headache during the day but it was no big deal.  For breakfast, I heated up a piece of my egg bake that I premade yesterday.  It was a variation of this.  I just cut up a bunch of veggies... cooked up some chorizo sausage and then put that on top.   Scrambled I think 10 eggs and poured it on top.  Baked it. Cooled it.  Put it in the fridge.  This will last me through the week!

Lunch was a big ole salad with a yellow pepper, broccoli, grape tomatoes, and strawberries.  Tossed it with my homemade greek dressing.

Dinner -- cut up half a zucchini and a few pieces of broccoli.  Sauteed it with some EVOO and garlic.  Added fresh basil and oregano a little later and a roma tomato.  Meanwhile, cooked up a burger on the stove.  Put the veggies on my plate -- added some pepper and red pepper flakes, and topped it with some Cholula hot sauce.  Put the burger on top with some dijon mustard and an avocado.  Filled me right on up!

Again, Whole9 is no grain.. no sugar.. no dairy and a few other no-nos.  Reading labels is key.  Check it out here and join me on the lifestyle change!

"Every time you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask if you want to be a prisoner of the past or a pioneer of the future."  Deepak Chopra

Carb Flu

I have started a new lifestyle.. and let me tell you.. this is TOUGH.  I'm not even through day one.  It is the Whole9 lifestyle change.  Basically no sugar, dairy or carbs. Me not eating cheese? Are you kidding?  Thank God we aren't in football season yet -- I gotta have my beer during the games. I kinda did this on a whim.  My friend Stephanie told me about how she's never felt better and dropped a ton of weight so far - along with her boyfriend.  She talked me into it last night so I looked up some recipes this morning and thought I'd give it a whirl.  She has struggled with up-and-down weight as I have so if she found something that worked, I may as well try something else.  Breakfast was a couple eggs, green and red pepper, and an avocado.  Yum!  Lunch was a salad with a DELICIOUS dressing I made that I found on Pinterest.  Follow my board here for Paleo/Whole9 recipes.  Dinner was spaghetti squash with homemade sauce and turkey sausage.

I premade breakfast for tomorrow - an egg bake with a bunch of veggies and chorizo sausage.  Had a bite to try and it was yummy.  A little nuke in the microwave in the AM and I'll be set.

As I was munching on my dinner, I started to crave bread... bad.  I started to get a headache.  I never get headaches!  I texted dear old Stephanie and she said that is what is called the carb flu and to get used to it for a week or two.  I should prepare to feel nauseous, tired, and crave for two weeks.  After that I should feel golden.  Let me tell you -- I wanted to cry.  I felt like a hormonal teenager getting my period for the first time AND going through crack withdraws.  Not even a whole day through and I was craving bread.  Crazy how our bodies work.  She told me to push through and it gets better.  Mom suggest we take a dip in the pool.  That did the trick.  I felt much better.  I feel better now.

As for the weight -- I lost 2.5 pounds the first week... then gained 1.5 pounds over the next two weeks.  My exercise has been going well and my muscles are a lil achy so I'm not worried about the weight gain.  I can tell a difference in my thighs - hallelujah!  And, I even bought some new shorts and dresses :)  I bought a dress a few weeks ago while I was on vacay that was too tight and I wore it last week! HOLLER!

Share your recipes with me and other blog visitors!  Cheers to our fitness!

"Listen closely: the only time it's too late to change yourself is when you're dead. Until then, you're simply making excuses or lying to yourself."

Making it Public... Again

I posted on social media today a picture of the scale -- my produce haul -- and me exercising.  I'd love to add it here right now but it won't let me email it to myself.  Hmm.. well, check my Facebook or Instagram.  Needless to say, my birthday is in 2 weeks. My 8th anniversary of my 21st birthday as I like to say.  Then it'll be the big 3-0 next year.  #bikiniby30 -- that's my new thing.  I probably still have one shoved in the back of my drawer that I wore once, maybe twice... in the privacy of my home... when I lost weight back in high school. It's blue and sparkly -- doesn't get much better than that!  I'd love to whip that sucker out again!

I was back looking at some old posts where I said I wanted an Olympic butt lol.  Mine is so boring!  I remember a few years ago I was getting a nice shape to it from using the elliptical.  That's my fav machine!  Yesterday I did 20 mins on the bike... 30 mins on the elliptical... 30 mins circuit training... and prob 30 minutes of swimming/jumping around the pool.  Not bad, not bad.

Today I made some fun recipes from Pinterest.  A cucumber salad that was so simple and tasty!  Cut it up real thin... put it in a bowl... few squirts of lemon juice and EVOO -- a few dashes of chili powder to your liking.  Cover it - shake it - yum yum yum!

I also made sweet potato chips.  Cut the sweet potato real thin. Preheat 425.. cook for 15-25 minutes (depending on how thin you cut them - the thinner the better.)  I put some salt and vinegar in a bag and when the chips were done, add them, give a lil shake, and BAM a tasty and mostly healthy snack.

I just premade my salad for work tomorrow so I'll just have to put it in my lunchbox and head out the door!  Have some yogurt and fruit to snack on. Trying to cut down on carbs like so many have suggested and I know.  I have been cutting down on sammiches for lunch and have been adding more salads.  Think I'll bring some soup, too.  Soup and a salad... then head to the gym after.  Homework is going on the back burner.  I'm pretty much caught up with all that - just have to finish writing my Prospectus (what on earth is that anyway??)

Now -- I know the sweet potato is a starch... but isn't that a good carb since it's a veggie?  If you have some great recipes, share them in the comments!

I hope to be updating this more often now... including my little thermometer which I had been neglecting.  (I HAD been down 12 pounds... Now at 2.5... but no looking back.  Only forward.)

Time to bring back an old quote since I love my food... and need to remember moderation is key.

"Food does not taste as good as thin feels." -- Unknown

You're Beautiful

Sometimes you just need to hear the words, "You look beautiful." to help get the crank going.  Just realized it's been about nine months since my last update. Gained a couple pounds back.. but still down 5.  Ugh.  But recent events in my life have made me want to care more about myself... again.

I got all dolled up and met some friends out for drinks and the guys kept telling me how beautiful I looked throughout the night.  (And the boys showed up at different times, so it wasn't a chain reaction, either.)  It really made me feel special... which is funny because I should have been thinking, "Are they on crack?"  but I didn't.  I took the compliments and just felt so happy and comfortable in myself for some odd reason.  I don't know -- maybe they just seemed to mean it and it wasn't just something they felt they had to say.  With that, and a slew of other events, it's made me realize that I am beautiful - inside and out.  I just know I'd feel more comfortable feeling it and seeing it on the outside for myself.  

I have been walking with friends around my neighborhood.. and hitting up the gym every now and then... and swimming some laps in my pool now that it's warming up :)  

So for any guys out there reading this -- if you see a girl, tell her how beautiful she looks (and mean it.)  You never know what it means to her.  

"Our greatest glory is not falling, but in rising every time we fall." - Confucius

Exciting Updates!

5 pounds down since moving home! WOOOO HOOOO! Went and bought some new shorts and a couple dresses for myself -- thanks to a gift card to Kohl's from my BFF, Nurse Molly!  Gotta love sales and coupons!

I went to Max-Wellness a week or so ago and picked up some coconut oil, vitamins, and fish oil. It started out on my girl's vacation with some of my BFFs from high school. They had mentioned B12 as a supplement to help with my weight loss. I had all intentions of adding that to my diet but I talked with a really nice lady who knew a LOT about the products in the store. She advised me to just start with a regular vitamin supplement and then in a week or two if I didn't feel I had enough energy to add the B12 for a little extra push.  Luckily I haven't needed to go pick it up though I don't really feel a difference in my energy level -- but I also haven't taken the vitamin every day.  I usually smash it and put it in my fruit smoothie.  The vitamin is all organic and doesn't have a pleasant smell buuuuut it's fine in my smoothie. Don't taste it at all.

The coconut oil also smells better than it tastes. I tried it just by itself and it had too much of an oily taste to it so I just add that in basically anything I'm cooking.  Eggs -- which sounds pretty gross but I figured what the heck? I needed to get it in so that's how I did it. Had an interesting taste to it.  If you like to try different foods, go for it.  If you aren't very much of a risk taker with foods, you probably won't like it. Luckily you can cook and bake with the coconut oil so it is very versatile. I also put this in my smoothie and it gives it a nice little coconut taste.

The fish oil -- let me tell you all something. I grew up in Florida but I can't stand fish. I've tried a few kinds but just isn't my cup of tea -- until I went on vacation last week and tried grilled salmon. Holy moly I LOVED it!!!! My other BFF, Marissa ordered it at the Salty Dog Cafe in Hilton Head, South Carolina and I remembered my friend who also doesn't like fish said she loved salmon so I wanted to give it a whirl. I was shocked with how it didn't taste like fish at all!  I said it tasted like a burger and chicken. Weird, right? The oil(?) had a resemblance to the grease of a burger but like the consistency of chicken. I don't know how else to explain it lol. Back to the fish oil -- I opted for the oil because I am not a good pill taker. I was worried it would taste fishy but it doesn't at all. It is lemon flavored and I also add this to my smoothies.  This is something you can't use to cook but can put on salads and other food.

From taking these supplements I've noticed my skin has a nice glow to it and is softer. Nurse Molly said I should notice it in my hair as well but I usually keep my hair up since I'm still looking for a job (shameless plug!) while I'm in school. I'm cutting my locks and donating them to Locks of Love on Friday.

Another pretty cool thing -- I received an email from a woman who works with Beachbody (P90x ring a bell with any of you? They created it!) and they've been reading my blog and would like me to write about their products so this could be cool!  Waiting on more information so I'll let everybody know if this is something I decide to take on.

"More die in the United States of too much food than too little." -- John Kenneth Galbraith

I Want an Olympic Butt

I'm back in Florida my friends and followers! The last week or two I've been doing nothing but cleaning up and putting away three years of my life from Pennsylvania back into my tiny room. What a concept. I have BAGS of clothes of all different sizes. Threw out a bunch of old. Was able to sell 1 shirt out of tens to Plato's Closet. The rest will be heading off to Goodwill in the coming days. Can't believe they didn't  buy more -- I have some nice stuff compared to some junk they sell in there!

I've been doing pretty well with the whole working out thing again. I pretty much failed the last year. Well, I wouldn't say fail -- maybe I would... but I definitely wasn't in it as I thought I would be. I did better during football season and that was my biggest fear! Go figure? I've since rejoined a gym here in my neighborhood so I really have no reason not to go -- and I've been every day since I signed up on Monday. High 5! I'm down 2 pounds since moving back home. We're on the third scale now and it reads 238. So I'm down 2 pounds since starting this a year ago. Pathetic. Really, pathetic. I have nobody to blame but myself. Thought it would have been easier up in Pennsylvania. Who was I kidding? Between going out to eat so much and having people up just about every weekend and out at the bars it's no wonder. Also, working from home didn't help... but I was out walking/wogging many mornings... until the rain came and it was hotter than Hell and our air conditioning wasn't keeping up... But that job is now over thank goodness and now I'm home and jobless for the time being until I get myself under control and start up school and see what my schedule is like. Then I'll find myself a nice part time job to help pay the bills. 

Anyway, enough about that. Back to the good stuff. Like I said, I've been exercising just about every day I've been home. In the pool, out for walks, and at the gym kicking butt. This week I've been on the elliptical for 33 minutes and then I do the weight circuit every other day. Next week I'll change up the cardio because I don't want my body getting used to anything. We all know that halts the weight loss and we certainly don't want that. :) Oh, about the title here with the Olympic butts... my goal is to have a butt like the beach volleyball players. Just about perfect aren't they? Who wants to go play? lol

I love my gym. There's never been more than four or five people at a time and it's all people who have -- shall we say -- retired. I smile seeing the old folks walk in with their khaki shots, shirt tucked in and wearing a belt to exercise. Gotta love it. Nice folks and you don't feel judged. Never a wait for machines. It's a peaceful workout where I can focus on myself.... and the one young guy I've seen in there. 

I took some pictures while there -- and while nobody was around because that would be a little awkward wouldn't it? lol. So here is how I looked as of Tuesday on my second day at the gym.

I don't know why these are showing up sideways... I edited them so they wouldn't and they show up fine on my computer. If anybody knows what the issues is, please let me know.

I'm not sucking in, just letting it "all hang out" as they say. Can't wait to see some changes. As for now, time to gulp down some more water and get ready for dinner!

"If you don't do what's best for your body, you're the one who comes up on the short end" -- Julius Erving

Bathroom Snafu

Oops apparently I forgot to publish my last post! Sorry about that. You can catch up on all the old news.....

**a couple weeks ago***

Hello readers! I know it's been a while since the last update. I was studying for two huge tests that I needed to pass in order to get accepted into a teaching program.. GOOD NEWS! I PASSED THEM BOTH! So now I'm just waiting for a few other things to go through and then hopefully my acceptance letter will be following shortly.

I also had a little snafu in the bathroom. I managed to trip over my scale, sending it up in the air and it landed upside down. Needless to say, it wasn't in working order. I joined the State College Freecycle group and somebody had a scale they were no longer using and gave it to me. This one is digital so it is easier to read. When my roomie stepped on, it showed she was 3 pounds heavier than her last weigh in. For me this morning, it read 235.5. Even if I was 232.5, that would still be a 3 pound gain for me since last time. (I'm not surprised with how I ate in Philly 2 weeks ago for the tests.) So we'll just start here and go DOWN from there.

I've worked out 6 days in a row!! I love the new app I use -- Endomondo. It tracks how far I've gone and how many calories I've burned. So far this month I have walked/wogged/ran 23.17 miles. Pretty exciting to see my statistics on the site!!

This morning was the first morning workout I've had in a while. I've been waking up to rainy mornings the last week or so. Although, earlier this week I went out for a run in the rain and it was amazing!! I went without my glasses on so I could "see" -- (I'm blind as a bat without my glasses on) but it was better because I couldn't see if there was a hot guy up ahead and maybe stop so I didn't look a fool. I just kept going past whomever was out there. It was quite refreshing. I hope to keep improving my time around the 2.3 miles I usually go.


**back to today**

That should answer some questions lol.  As for today, I did my first two-a-day in a while. Got up at 7:30 and went for a wog and then went again after work. 2.2+ miles each time. I also did some crunches and some leg exercise. Not sure what it's called but I got down on all fours and kicked my leg out and brought it in 10 times, then did the opposite leg. Did a couple reps of that.. Tightening the hiney! Pretty soon you'll be able to bounce quarters off of it. I can definitely feel a tight muscle underneath the extra padding there.

Speaking of the hiney -- (and warning, honest Jen is coming out here...) you know what is super annoying? Starting to run and then feeling like you have to poop! Nothing ruins a good start at running like having to stop because your colon decides to start working again. Ugh so annoying. Stop saying "that's gross" -- you know the saaaame thing has happened to you. Especially if you are new to working out. I don't know the magic behind it, but your muscles aren't used to working and once they feel a lot of movement, they say, "Hey there! Woo hoo! You're moving us all around so we're gonna move the poop right on out of you!"  Then once you start working out for a few days, that feeling goes away -- thank goodness. So, if you're new to the whole "working out" ordeal and hate that you have to poop every gosh darn time you start to work out, it WILL stop. Today was just a random occurrence. lol.

Ok enough of poop and butt talk. Time to hit the floor and do some more ab and leg work.

"I would rather be covered in sweat at the gym than covered with clothes at the beach". -- unknown

FINALLY! Back to LOSING again!

WWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HHHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOO! You don't know the excitement that came across me this morning when the scale was tilting a lil to the left. Down a pound from last week! Which means I'm back to those 220s and hope to stay there -- but not for long, of course, considering my goal of 89-ish more pounds to go. Thanks for all the comments last week on the tips and tricks. My one friend reminded me that I may not be eating enough so I've been trying to add a few snacks throughout my day. I started a food journal to keep track of what I was eating -- that lasted a day before I forgot about it until now. Oops. But I did measure my body which I wish I would have done months ago. I wasn't sure where exactly to measure so I Googled and YouTubed a few places and here's what I'm doing:


Neck:  14.5
Bicep (Not flexing): 17
Chest (Biggest part across the biggest part of the boobies): 46
Waist (Belly button): 48
Hips (Biggest part of butt, heels together): 52
Thigh (Where arms land): 28.5
Calf (Thickest part): 16

Now, Dr. Oz measured the waist at a different part so I don't know where is really accurate, but I'm just going to go with right at the belly button. I have no idea what's normal (Waist for girls I think is 32 inches depending on where you measure.) I'll just keep track along the way. Not sure how often to measure that? Maybe once a month? Anybody else measure out there?

Now, what did I do different this week? Well, I climbed a mountain. Yep, for the second time I took a hike up Mt. Nittany with my roomie.

It was the perfect day with temperatures in the 50s/60s and not a cloud in the sky. It was half a mile up and half a mile down. Took us about an hour and a half -- that's counting the time we spent just looking off at the miles of beauty here in central PA.  We could see Beaver Stadium and the Bryce Jordan Center and I was thinking about all the great times I had in both places.

I also downloaded this new app called Endomondo. Just don't forget to turn on your GPS like I did -- I walked about 5 miles and it didn't count my travels. But, now I know. It tells you how far you've walked, pace and calories burned. Pretty neat to keep track of if you're out and about! I hear you can challenge friends to different activities, too.

When Molly and I were out on our evening walk a few days ago, we were talking about our bodies and the changes we were feeling. While walking downtown, I noticed my reflection that I had a butt starting to form again! Awesome! And there was less to grab! Weeeeee!!  (And no, I didn't cop a feel right there on the street...)

Now, I'm definitely one to make fun of people taking nothing but pictures of themselves on Facebook... especially mirror shots... (or on dating websites... ooooh do I have a field day with those... especially when they are taken in the bathroom and the guy has a picture of Johnny Depp above his toilet...but I digress.) I'm sticking my foot in my mouth for this one, but let's be real -- this is a blog about weight loss and I have to document it so I can tell if changes are being made and hopefully inspire others along the way to get healthy.

I am so unproportioned. All my weight is like right there in the gut. If you cover up the gut, I don't think my bootie is half bad. A nice lil bump starting lol. Decent legs -- not wonder people called me "chicken" in middle school. Lil legs and a big ole top. 

My calves are feeling mighty strong -- but I've always had decent legs... below the knee that is lol. I am also noticing a change in the thunder thighs -- not as much fat sticking out when I cross my legs so finally that is shrinking. Same with the love handles!  Just have to keep this up to keep them down.

Seriously, knees? Hello?

Can see a little definition starting up there. Let's hope this keeps on the same path DOWN!

"Habit is habit and not to be flung out of the window by any man, but coaxed downstairs a step at a time." -- Mark Twain

FRUSTRATED!

I am so frustrated with this weight loss. Jumped up on the scale this am -- NO CHANGE AGAIN FOR THE UMPTEENTH TIME. I don't know what the hell is going on. I should not be plateauing at 10 freaking pounds. We ate so healthy this week. I've been walking the past few days... last week was crappy out so I wasn't outside then. But C'MON! I don't get it. I really don't. It's been FOREVER since I've dropped a pound. I don't remember the last time I had fried food. We've been eating salads and chicken and soup... I don't get it. I'm not skipping meals... eating fruit every day. Hell, even cut down on bread. I use to have a sammich for lunch practically every day. Now I'm eating our leftover crockpot dishes or soup lately. Stress can't possibly be to blame for this though I know it has a part. We walked MILES in New York two weeks ago. I'm drinking hot tea, ice cubes in water, taking vitamins. Haven't had a sip of alcohol since New York.  HELLLLLP MEEEEEEEEE

"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed no hope at all." -- Dale Carnegie

2-A-Days!

Good Monday morning to you all! It is 8:45 in the morning and I just finished workout numero uno for the day. Yes, it's time for me to start 2-a-days. What are 2-a-days you ask? It's okay if you don't know -- my very athletic soccer crazed friend had no idea -- so I felt pretty cool explaining to HIM something about working out lol. It's where you work out twice a day.

I could not fall asleep to save my life last night. I've been so used to staying up until midnight because I normally don't get up until 8:55 on weekdays and on weekends it varies with what friends are up here visiting. But, with how gorgeous it is outside now and with working later than normal, I set that alarm for 7:30. While I was waking up before the sun decided to shine its pretty little face on me -- thanks to the birds enjoying this gorgeous weather before anybody else -- the alarm went off and I hit snooze. I laid there thinking, "Okay, Jennifer, don't be lazy. Get your big ole bootie out of bed. You know how much better you'll feel once you get outside." And that's what I did. Got up, threw on the spots bra, munched on a FiberOne bar because my friend, life coach, and personal trainer out in Chicago, Stephanie from Step it Up With Steph taught me that you should eat 100 calories when you get up. You also don't want to go out on an empty stomach so a little bar does just the trick.

I started out with a nice walk, taking in the fresh air. Then I found myself in the wog. I wasn't planning on wogging today, but I've been walking for the past few days and figured it was good enough a time as ever. For those just joining me on the road to 100-ish, a wog is a walk/jog -- where I don't think I'm actually up to jog speed yet, but I'm moving faster than a walk. You're welcome.

I looked ahead, set a small goal since it's been a while since I took on the wog, and I passed it and kept going. It was that feeling I had in the fall when I set my goal and I went and I set another goal and just kept going for a long time shocking the hell out of myself. My 50 minute walk turned into being 35 minutes. 2.3 miles in 35 minutes. I'll take it for my first wog around the block...and actually, on the last home stretch, I felt like I was RUNNING. I put the pedal to the metal Fred Flinstone style. I'm sure if I saw myself from across the street I looked like I was just walking fast -- lol -- but man, I felt like I was flying! Felt GREAT.

Throughout the walk/wog/RUN I was my own personal trainer. Talking to myself in my head. It's funny -- last night my roomie and I were watching The Amazing Race and I was making comments on a lot of what was going on (mostly about that annoying chick who will not stop crying on every leg of the race and thinks her marriage is over because she just can't handle the pressure -- man that guy needs to drop her like I'm gonna be dropping these pounds-- hey oooo!) and she asked if I do this when she's not here LOL. I don't think I normally talk to myself...but then this morning I was doing just that. It brought me back to my days as a kid seeing tennis matches on TV or even here at Penn State I went to a few and I laughed at seeing the players yell at themselves. Like literally YELLING at THEMSELVES saying "COME ON! FOCUS! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!? YOU'RE BETTER THAN THIS! ARRGGHHHH!! " And I just thought that was crazy. But today, I was that person. Not verbally, but mentally. I was coaching myself. "Okay, Jennifer, you can do this. Keep it up. Let's wog again. Build up your metabolism. Get ready for that wedding and 10 year reunion." (Ugh, still can't believe my 10 year high school reunion will be this year....if it ever gets planned.)

I hope I just don't turn into a crazy person running down the street yelling at myself. But, if I do, if you hear a "WOOO!" down Waupelani Drive some day, just say, "You go, girrrrrrrrrrrl!"

"You must do the thing you think you cannot do." -- Eleanor Roosevelt